Grey's Quote

Just wanted to share a quote with you! 

We're all going to die. We don't get much say over how or when, but we do get to decide how we're gonna live. So, do it. Decide. Is this the life you want to live? Is this the person you want to love? Is this the best you can be? Can you be stronger? Kinder? More Compassionate? Decide. Breathe in. Breathe out and decide.

-Richard-

Grey's Anatomy

God Is Bigger than your problems!

Today has been an ehhhh kind of day. Not sure why....I couldn't sleep last night and just laid in bed. I finally fell asleep about 2:30. I woke up tired. Worst feeling ever!!! I've noticed that when I'm not going to have a great health day, my feet and legs have a "heavy" feeling. So I got up and started moving around and went straight back to bed. I just laid there. I got up and made some breakfast and was on my favorite spot on the couch. It's just one of those days.

I had interesting conversations with two friends. One has just found out her mom died of Heart Failure and the other discussed work issues. At the end of both conversations, I just contemplated the future. What are next steps in regards to my career? Do I remain in this fast paced, high stressed field? Or do I transition into another area of interest? Those are some decisions I will have to make as I take charge of my health. Tough decisions but I have time to process.

Many of the people in my support groups discuss having these types of days. I'm grateful that I have only had a few of them. Hopefully tomorrow will be better! I can't imagine the pain that others go through. There are more painful diseases out there. Pain that attacks their bodies and makes living, hell. I'm not sure how they do it, but they are troopers, survivors! Just makes me think. You always believe that your struggle is too great to overcome, but there are others who are worse off than you. Just keeps me grounded.

Saw this picture and thought it was appropriate.

Sodium Smodium

                         The Great Sodium Debate! 

The moment I was diagnosed with heart failure, the first thing I was told to eliminate was SODIUM! :sadface: I love some salt! It makes my mango, cucumbers and food taste soooooo much better. Because of heart failure, my body retains fluid like no other. By restricting my sodium the fluid around my heart disappears, it doesn't back up into my lungs and I have ANKLES! Before sickness, I was a grateful person. But now, I'm even more aware and try not to take the simple things in life for granted. Showering, walking in the sun, the beach, late nights with friends, being able to lift things on my own. It's the small things I swear!!!

I've tried this product, No Salt and it's ok. It's an alternative but I've heard it may conflict with some medications I take. So I rarely use it. It has an aftertaste, to me. 

I've been introduced to Mrs. Dash. I don't like her, but I use the seasoning and I supplement. Fresh lemons, garlic, cook with fruit, anything I can do to enhance the flavor of my bland chicken, brown rice and veggies. I have to do so in order to live. The little things make such a huge deal with heart disease. My dear sodium, I have let you go. In order to breathe and not sound like a cow while doing so, I say goodbye.

                                                         I'm not salty though!

Weather The Storm

Yesterday my very close friend was given bad news from the Dr. Her husband suffers from a very deadly blood cancer and after a two years, it's back. He has been through so much and had a transplant last year and it's back. This disease will kill him, the dr has said. How do you process this? How do you keep the will to live? How do you stay motivated and in turn, motivate your family? My heart is so heavy for them. They've been through so much and are still going through the worse. All I can do is pray and hope God comforts her through it all. 

When I begin to think of these diseases, I can't help but think where did it all come from? Did people back in the day have this? They just didn't know? Not just cancer, heart disease, kidney and lung failure, rheumatoid arthritis, and all those autoimmune diseases where your body is attacking itself? How did this come about? My mind races, and as I read all the theories out there it makes my head race. So much to consider, too many factors to add and a lot to process. 

I saw this picture on instagram last week and just felt it to be appropriate for now. 

Whatever you are going through, just know the storm will pass!