11.4.13

Today has been a day. Good, I can't complain...I'm alive, heart is beating and I'm alive. My cousin and sister left today and headed back home after helping take care of me for two weeks. I didn't get any naps today and I feel it. Just wanted to check in....life is life.

Surgery Tomorrow

Soooooooooooooooo the last 24 hours has been a world wind. At my Dr. appointment yesterday, I found out that the machine attached to my heart saved my life. So grateful! Now a lead is dislodged and I have surgery scheduled tomorrow to fix the screw that's in my heart. God is Good. Hopefully the recovery is not as long and I can bounce back quickly. Glad to have some great people in my corner. Happy Happy Joy Joy!!!

Lots of thinking

As my time at home winds down, I'm wondering if I'm ready to head back to work. It's just about readjusting to the way of things. Getting rest when it's needed and knowing my limitations. The good thing is, it will be two days then the weekend is here. Then the following week we only work three days and have two days off, plus the weekend. This gives me time to adjust. Time will tell!

My Australian friend Melany is here visiting. It's so awesome to have her here. We saw each other two years ago, at her wedding in Hawaii. She's taught me a lot as I developed as a person and a friend. We have been through some serous life changes together. Thousands of miles away and we're still able to maintain our friendship. Great friends are hard to come by! Fun, Fun!

Grey's Quote

Just wanted to share a quote with you! 

We're all going to die. We don't get much say over how or when, but we do get to decide how we're gonna live. So, do it. Decide. Is this the life you want to live? Is this the person you want to love? Is this the best you can be? Can you be stronger? Kinder? More Compassionate? Decide. Breathe in. Breathe out and decide.

-Richard-

Grey's Anatomy

God Is Bigger than your problems!

Today has been an ehhhh kind of day. Not sure why....I couldn't sleep last night and just laid in bed. I finally fell asleep about 2:30. I woke up tired. Worst feeling ever!!! I've noticed that when I'm not going to have a great health day, my feet and legs have a "heavy" feeling. So I got up and started moving around and went straight back to bed. I just laid there. I got up and made some breakfast and was on my favorite spot on the couch. It's just one of those days.

I had interesting conversations with two friends. One has just found out her mom died of Heart Failure and the other discussed work issues. At the end of both conversations, I just contemplated the future. What are next steps in regards to my career? Do I remain in this fast paced, high stressed field? Or do I transition into another area of interest? Those are some decisions I will have to make as I take charge of my health. Tough decisions but I have time to process.

Many of the people in my support groups discuss having these types of days. I'm grateful that I have only had a few of them. Hopefully tomorrow will be better! I can't imagine the pain that others go through. There are more painful diseases out there. Pain that attacks their bodies and makes living, hell. I'm not sure how they do it, but they are troopers, survivors! Just makes me think. You always believe that your struggle is too great to overcome, but there are others who are worse off than you. Just keeps me grounded.

Saw this picture and thought it was appropriate.